helpless

wounds of yesterday
soothed but for a moment
before I throw you away
and retreat into solace
I can't feel your pain
I'm too numb to see
selfish childish ways
ripping at the seams

I hate myself today
for what I've done to you
I don't deserve your grace
for what I've put you through

But nothing can be done
I can't turn back the clock
time sealed in all the pain
it's left inside to rot
We both are hurting now
though both in different ways
Your anger and mourning
I can only feel ashamed

There's no way out today
for what I've done to you
I see it on your face
scars of what I've done to you