Suspicion

I'm starting to feel like a fool, and starting to get the sinking suspicion that I was lied to in a very profound way last February.

I'm too gullible and trusting, perhaps, but some things just don't seem to make sense when I look back on them. The sad thing is that if I were told the truth, but it wasn't the truth I suspect, then there'd be no way to ease this suspicion.

I'd better address it in person before posting it to the blog, but no matter what I'm told, I won't believe it. That's the saddest thing of all. I feel betrayed, and like a complete tool.